I've mentioned before that I have anxiety. I guess that means I was at some point diagnosed with "general anxiety disorder", and take SSRI anti-depressants for it. It's made a huge difference.
It was only after I took the medication that I started feeling differently and realized...
WAIT IS THIS HOW NORMAL PEOPLE ARE? NOT CONSTANTLY AFRAID ALL THE TIME?
It was a great revelation, but that was almost 4 years ago. I've been doing tons of talk therapy, meditation and generally trying to manage it. I've been doing ok - but sometimes it's worse.
It sucks and I hate it so much! I've enjoyed drawing for a few years now and I don't know if it's the anxiety or just pure laziness but I haven't really thrown myself into it. I have had many ideas and recently decided to start being more thoughtful and proactive with it... yet I am always striving for 'perfect'. How can I be perfect?
1) it's not a thing
2) like i'm totally new at this
Learning to let go of that dumb pursuit seems so hard, and with that I'm trying to post more.
So. this is my attempt to #draweverydamnday.
make me do it.